Jake is such a cute little boy. It is hard to not fall in love with him at first sight. He has all the nurses wrapped around his tiny fingers! He is three weeks old today and while he is doing better than expected, that’s not to say that we are not very worried about things. Jake has very sick lungs right now that the doctors are being very delicate to fix. Not giving him medicine could be detrimental but the medicine to give him can also cause problems. He is also switching back and forth from different ventilators, trying to figure out which one is going to be right for each individual day. We are learning that it is a delicate balance every single day in the NICU. The doctors, nurses and parents have to weigh out all the pros and cons for every single decision made. There are things that I am learning that I wish I had never ever learned. It is amazing all of the little details that never get missed.
The nurses have been amazing through this whole process. I can’t thank them enough for their love, attention and patience with not only Jake but me as well. It is scary as a mom to leave your baby in the nurse's care, especially in this situation; I am so thankful that the nurses have been so wonderful and attentive to all his needs. They are so smart and truly know what they’re doing.
Jake is very little. You can easily compare him to the size of a barbie. There are only a select few amount of people who will ever witness the things that Rory and I are becoming accustomed to. Jake is a very special little boy. It is hard for me to sit in the mom room at the hospital and listen to the other moms come in crying and complaining that their 6 pound baby will have to stay one more day in the NICU! It takes all that I have not to jump up and start yelling at them. We all need to stop complaining about the little things in life and remember how blessed we all are to have healthy babies and kids, even if they have the slightest problems, or they don't do everything perfect the first time, there are worse things in the world to complain about than one measly day in the NICU. I think that will be one of my biggest lessons learned from this experience. I know I can be and have been hard on my kids in the past, and I expect them to be ust perfect all of the time. I now am going to be more appreciative of every day I get to spend with them and not be so picky about the little things! I love my kids and Rory more than anything and I am going to try harder each day to show that love!
